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« on: May 08, 2013, 05:01:55 AM »
So my girlfriend and I are taking a break. Lately we've been arguing so much and it's like we've been so far into the relationship, she seems to not try as hard anymore. But that's not how it works. I couldn't stand it anymore, how much effort I put into the relationship and nothing in return. And on top of that, the fact she'd dismiss any problem we had in the relationship, and prioritize other people and stupid video games in place of me. It's not self centered, I'm her boyfriend. I don't deserve it.
She never saw it coming, me telling her I want a break. She felt so secure in the relationship that she didn't have to try, or even worry of me leaving. Now I just don't know what to do.
Leave: And don't have to worry about being hurt and disregarded again. I don't think she deserves another chance.
Stay: She proves me wrong and changes. I trust her enough to change. But, I have a really hard time doing that right now.
I need some advice. I've given her a chance before and I'm not explaining the issue with that. I feel like she doesn't deserve another.
It's just, I've poured so much of myself into this relationship to just leave. But, I have good reason to.
I just haven't been happy this past month or so, and I want things to get better. Whether I have to leave or stay and cross my fingers....
I'm exhausted.