Tobbeh, this is a forum designed to generate discussion. Everytime you post, it seems as if you are posting just to see your own post. A forum* is not the place to post your own thoughts and musing if they are consistently failing to generate discussion. Please leave and go make a blog so the rest of us don't have to read your musings. I know that I am hardly the first person to say this to you. Learn to take a hint, especially when said hint has been explicitly stated dozens of time.
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fo·rum
ˈfôrəm
noun
noun: forum; plural noun: forums; plural noun: fora
1.
a place, meeting, or medium where ideas and views on a particular issue can be exchanged.
"it will be a forum for consumers to exchange their views on medical research"
synonyms: meeting, assembly, gathering, rally, conference, seminar, convention, symposium, colloquium, caucus;
Also:
an Internet site where users can post comments about a particular issue or topic and reply to other users' postings.