So I've been getting A LOT of energy in the last 3 month or so. And I've become increasingly active, not only on this site, but pretty much everywhere in expressing my opinions on things. So I thought, if I don't want to end up in jail (banned for lifetime on NSM for spamming) like King Sammer, I'll have to create a thread where I can post a bunch of stuff and people can come in and out and look if and see if there is anything "of reason" that I write. This "project" in itself is kind of a joke as I actually bought a "diary" to write down all my crazy thoughts I got in my head, but apparently it's not enough, I need a digital diary as well

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To start things of I just wondered if I'm the only one who has a song that I both Hate and Love, crazy enough on the same time!?
It's this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rITt4yTz-zoI hate the pic with the "bloody scar", but I like the water and the bubbles. Also dislike the Japanease lyrics, but I do like the rock and piano, fits really well. And I also like the dissonant nature of the song. It constantly shifts, lots of time signature changes, the only thing remaining is a bunch of tritones,2nds,7ths etc. it's harmonically very calm, imo.
It sort of reminds of a calmer version of an improvisation I use to play:
That "improvisation" was supposed to be a full song but... I can't write full songs

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. Or I can, but it's hard. People don't tell you this, but composing songs/pieces is not just "expressing your creativity", it a craftsmanship like any other job, a profession. When Beethoven was making his symphonies, it was the same philosophy as when a let's say wood-worker works on building a for example a chair, or maybe something more fancy like a chest. It's not only "go out in the nature and feel the atmosphere engulf you with inspiration", It's a TON of work to. If you're interessted, I think this website is a really good one, especially classical composing:
https://www.artofcomposing.com/Anyway I'd tried to compose songs, but I usually end up with a really good but short piece of written material. I guess I'm bad at "expanding" my piece of art. If I'd look more on that site and "studied the secret techniques of the great grand-masters" I'd probably have the tools to write great music, ...but it's not that easy, I don't really have the will-force and I try focusing on arranging, youtube videos, playing games and now I of course got my job which I have to do, I just have to. So I might compose something in the future, but it's really up to me.
To get back to point A about hating and loving songs at the same time.
This one comes close:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MshUFnfEfeAand this one comes Really close (used to be my "anger song", then my "sadness song", and now it's just my "painful feelings-that-I-don't-want-to-have song":
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RoVAUUFjl0Ibtw sorry for creating lot's of different topics. It won't happen more I promise, Unless I have a great reason to do so. I personally think that the Climate Change topic has had great value to not only me but that it has lead to some discussions and raised questions in peoples mind about the climate and planet earth. The "don't read this thread" topic was really unnecessary and I could have started this thread with that post, but it's really no problem as it'll slowly disappear into the archive of forgotten NSM topics sooner or later (if you really hate you have my permission to simply delete it, don't want to cause any fear on this website). But plz do not delete this thread as I think will have importance for me, and also perhaps other people on the site

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